It’s getting to be February, the armpit of the year. Let me tell, you, I hate this month. Studies show that nothing good ever happens to me in February, which is a clear sign that the month is bad. If nothing good occurs, then either only “meh” occurs, or things get worse.
Anyway, I’m still trying to get rid of the jet lag - last night, went to bed at 11PM and now I’ve woken up at 8AM. I should probably clean my room, but I’m going to type on here instead. Waking up early gives me a lot of time to think about things. I’m in the middle of semi-unhappiness right now, which I know has to be my fault because I’m not unhappy unless I let myself get that way. I’ve been able to identify it down to a few things:
- I’m tired of these places again, and I need to go out discovering. I’ve
spent over 2 years here at UMD so far, and I’ve spent next to no time in DC
- maybe I should be getting my friends together and going out there.
- I’m worried about the future - will it all work out, now that I no longer
have any real plans or goals or set ideas on what I want to do? All I want
is to be interested and happy in what I’m doing, but I have no idea what could
do that.
- I’m tired of being single for all this time. Really tired. But I don’t know
how to go about resolving that. Well, no, I do, of course, but not really.
I don’t know.
- I really, really, really want to improve my grades…but I think that will
entail me dropping Japanese, something I love. However, I have heard about
private lessons, and that could be better than learning it here.
- I need a job - at least something here on campus, maybe over at CSPAC.
- I think two of my plans for the year will be to start a book (writing it, that is) and learning how to draw.
Keep on a rockin’me baby.
pacchi on January 27th, 2002 | File Under Old Blog | No Comments -